As someone who has also been bullied and felt so alone when I was a child, the thought of ending it all has always crossed my mind. BUT there is always that voice in my head telling me I shouldn't do it... and I'm glad I didn't.

I just want to share my thoughts regarding depression and why you should think twice before you do anything.

ONE: YOU ONLY LIVE ONCE

First and foremost, we only live once. Once you end it, there is no going back. Whatever there is in the afterlife, as soon as you get there -- you stay there whether it is good or bad. So before you even think about it again, I'm hoping you can hear me out first.

TWO: THINK AGAIN

During the darkest days in my life, I was not only bullied in school but also didn't have any real friends to be there to help me. At home, I feel so disconnected with my family and struggled every day with middle child problems. At times I found myself crying at night and just wishing the hurt will just go away. The thought of ending my life crossed my mind as my way of getting back at the people who have hurt me. I was thinking... if I die, all the people who have hurt me will remember what they did to me and will forever blame themselves for what they did.

Today as I recall all the feelings I had back then, I realized had I really ended it all, will all the people who have hurt me really remember me until today and be guilty forever? Maybe my family but not the people who have really hurt me. They will probably think I deserved it or I was really dumb. And I don't want to give them that satisfaction.

THREE: TAKE A BREATHER

So what did I do to get over my depression? I took a breather. Of course, back then, I was just in junior high school and didn't have any money to go on a vacation. But who says I also need to think of them when I got home? Why will I let them rule my life and make me think that I don't deserve to be happy?

Unlike in my days, everyone now has the internet and they can easily express themselves in any way they want. Think of something you love to do and use the internet to find ways how to do it. If you love art, you can post videos of your work, if you love writing, you can share it in many different sites, if you love cooking, you can learn a new recipe every day. And regardless if you have someone to help you or not, these are things you can enjoy doing even by yourself.

FOUR: TALK TO SOMEONE

Now I remember that there are days when it gets really hard. When the people who have hurt you, becomes too personal or simply do not care how you feel. These are the days you really need someone to talk to. And you shouldn't be afraid to talk to someone. It doesn't have to be a friend, it can be your guidance counselor, your teacher, a priest and sometimes its even better if its a stranger. Now I'm not saying to just go walk in the street and talk to the first person you meet... There are so many websites where they allow you to talk to someone anonymously and just share your thoughts.

Be open and listen to what they have to say.

FIVE: DON"T BE AFRAID TO ASK FOR HELP

How can someone help a person if they won't tell the truth? If someone did something bad to you, don't be afraid to ask for help. You are not the only person going through a problem and you have to realize that there is always a solution for everything. The journey to fixing it may take time and may be extremely difficult but I promise that it will all get better in the end. If you only give yourself a chance to live.

SIX: TALK TO SOMEONE WHO ALSO WENT THROUGH THE SAME PAIN

If the pain is just too much to bear, it will really help if you talk to someone who also went through the same ordeal and got over it. Listen to their story and ask for their advice. Being able to talk to someone who knows exactly how you feel helps explain the pain and how to stop letting it affect your life.

SEVEN: FACE YOUR FEARS

Another way to get over your depression is to face your fears. Is there someone hurting you right now? Talk to them and explain how you feel. If they are not listening or if they don't care, ask someone to help you express how you feel. The consequences may or may not be what we expect BUT everything is worth trying before you do something you cannot undo right?

EIGHT to THIRTEEN: TALK TO GOD

Whether you believe in religion or not, I really encourage you to talk to the one being who created us all. Who knows everything we are going through and is always just one prayer away when you need someone to talk to.

I'm sharing with you one of my favorite songs that always make me cry when I hear it.

[Verse 1]
I will come to you in the silence
I will lift you from all your fear
You will hear My voice
I claim you as My choice
Be still, and know I am near

[Verse 2]
I am hope for all who are hopeless
I am eyes for all who long to see
In the shadows of the night
I will be your light
Come and rest in Me

[Chorus]
Do not be afraid, I am with you
I have called you each by name
Come and follow Me
I will bring you home
I love you and you are mine

[Verse 3]
I am strength for all the despairing
Healing for the ones who dwell in shame
All the blind will see, the lame will all run free
And all will know My name

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Sgm9lkTNQmc

Something about this song that comforts me so much. Maybe its the fact that a higher being knows me for who I really am and loves me truly. He knows what I am going through and promises me that he will never leave my side.